It is been awhile

It is been awhile.. it is been three years since I wrote my last post. There are lots of changes that happened in my life for the last three years. That changes mold me into what and who I am today. I am in denial stage right now, the sadness is within me. I don't know what do next because in everything that I do there are always consequences. Consequences that makes me sadder, day by day the sadness weakens me. There is a point in my life that I want to give up, maybe the universe conspires me to be sad right now, very ironic.


I broke my mantras in life, I did some things that I wasn't planned. Whatever I do I can't escape the reality that I'm into right now. They are right, love is blind and so do I. I was blinded by life and which I regretted right now. There are buts and ifs in my life right now and I am very confused on what to do...

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November Feels

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Hello Blogging World!!

Hi its me, Its been a long time that I didnt write, writers block maybe? I am just busy in my schooling and I am having fun with it. Studying Education is not easy though mine is just a crash course there are many things to study and lots of things to do.

I just realize that being a teacher is not an easy job but very fulfilling one. There are a lot of things to consider when you teach. For me the important thing to be a teacher is you are the catalyst of change to your students. You have to be a role model in order for them to fulfill their dreams. The knowledge they acquire is important to be who they are in the future. 

Right now I feel what they called separation anxiety or sepanx for short. For the short period of time, I am together with the people who I am having fun with, yet I acquired knowledge. I dont know why I am very happy when I am with them but we have to separate ways because life is  temporary. 

and btw.. I miss my readers!! how are you!!? hope you will read my non sense thoughts...

Love,

 shebang

Dear You,

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Dear You,

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Even if I havent seen you, I feel that we are connected. Yeah it feels weird that I feel this way and it is wrong that I feel this way but I don't know. This is why I don't want to fall in-love because I lack common sense and intelligence but there is in you that everything is beautiful. I realized that it is wrong. There are a lot of things to do in my life especially in my career. I want to be happy but not happily in love I want to be happy in terms of having a career being contented in my life. There is in me that I want to be with you, But I have to find you so that we will have a happy ending. But wait i don't believe in happy ending and forever but you will be awesome to change that.

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Everytime we talk I can say that the heaven conspire us to be happy that we are meant for each other. But that was a lie, you are happy with your significant other, and again I  failed. Im soo sad. I can say that we are not meant for each other. I think I have to find my happy ending without you. I know this is sad but I know I can handle this. I know you dont know what I feel because you are insensitive and again I say we havent seen each other.

I know you are happy with her, and I am happy too that we are still friends even if we are miles apart. I think the universe conspire us to be friends not lovers. I know that the universe conspire me to be happy with someone else and not with you but I have to find him first. I know you will be proud and happy for me one day. Maybe we will see each other when you are get married.

Happy and contented,

Shebang

Is this the End I feel?

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September will come to an end ( insert wake me up where september end song). Its now fall season which means that Christmas Season is near. Everyone is excited but not me. I feel that sadness is over me. I noticed that every morning  I wake up, I woke up with heavy heart, I dont know why.. There is something missing but I dont know what is it. 

Yeah, I am starting over again, but I am not broken hearted. I am starting again in terms of starting a new career. I  hope that this is it that I am waiting and longing for. I hope it is true that hardwork pays off, because I am working my ass off for this, and I hope that the universe will favor what I am doing. 

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I am not pressured for finding this new career, because I enjoyed every minute of it even though it is soo hard but I am learning, I like it. I am pressured to the people around me because they have a big expectations on me, they said: you should do this and you should do that. I am having a hard with it. but I have to this because  I know it is for my own good. I have to deal with it.


They said everthing happens for a reason, I hope I will answer my doubts and everthing in the future. 

Love, 

Shebang

A Late Bloomer's Thoughts

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Do you want to do new things that you are afraid to do it because you know you cant? Do you want to do something that is out of the box? You want to know something but you are afraid that it will hurt you? 

 I'm on my early twenties I realized that I haven't go far in terms of  my career, Im still finding doing things what I love and what I want to do. I just realized that I am a late bloomer and it makes me what I am. Still I'm in the first chapter in a book that still thinking what the story of my book will be. It would be a adventure genre, love genre or action genre. But I prefer a adventure genre because my life is soo boring  that I don't even  have a social or a love life. 

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• People same as my age, that throw their own callings, I can suppose that they know what they want to get along in their lifetime because it really depicted in their faces that they recognize what they doing and they are excelling in what they are serving.  To be honest, I'm jealous at them because as early as their age they are successful unlike me always staring at the ceiling while lying in bed, wandering what I want to do. 

Now, I realized something and I want to risk it, I want to try it. Life is all about risking something in order for you to know that what you are doing is right and risks what you want to do is a big challenge. I think this risk will be in the first chapter of my so called book.

love,

shebang

Another Random Post

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Hello my lovely readers,, ( if I have one ) its been a long time that I write another blog posts. Well I am busy these past few weeks, but I always find time to write another blog posts. Its been a long time to post my recent photos, because most of my photos are taken few months ago.

Recently, I feel in love with maxi skirts, because I am always fond wearing jeans wherever I go, When I tried to wear the skirt, I fell in love. The maxi skirt is very comfy and I feel very girly everytime I walk, I soo love this.. Another favorite of mine the crop top same with the skirt it is very comfortable to wear. Being comfortable in what I wearing is one of my priority, I dont care If I dont look nice , what important for me is being comfortable in what I wearing,, 

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Love,

Shebang

Significant Other's Indifference

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 Being in love and being loved is the best feeling in the world. We want to be loved. We want to cherish the time to be with our significant other. We can share our thoughts, our craziness, the love and among others to the love of our life. To those who find their other half well you are soo blessed because you find that person and that person finds you that loves you whatever and whoever you are. It is hard to find the the love of your life nowadays.

Everyone of us wants to find their significant other, but it is not easy. We have different personalities and flaws that will define us who and what we are. Finding our dream guy or girl is not easy as we think. We have our own standards in finding the other half that will kinda change our whole life.

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The physical standard is the top on my list. I mean most of us are easily attracted to those people that are beautiful and handsome. We try our best to look presentable to others. We want that our other half  that are attractive. But looks is just looks it will fade away. Personality is the most important at all. Another one is the personality. For me personality and values are very important because that makes who you are. We are not perfect, that is the plot twist. Not all personalities well blend, it really needs an acceptance to each other so that you will know that you like each other.

There are a lot of things to consider when you will find your significant other. The important thing is you will love each other whatever odds that will be. You understand each other that is very important. You will accept each other faults, imperfections, the past. How will you decide your future if you don't know your significant other's past? Take your relationship very seriously because it is not easy to be played, to be hurt and taken for granted. We don't want to get hurt, that is why we will think many times who will our significant other's will be. When you are in a relationship you have to brace yourself that not every-time is a happy-time there will be times that you will argue and have a misunderstandings, but it just normal it will test you if you are compatible with your significant other and how you will handle yourself in times like this. Don't forget, make the Lord to be the center of your relationship, because all is possible with Lord.

love,

shebang

Beddinginn

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 Cotton White Swan on Swan Lake Print Purple 4 Piece Bedding Sets/Duvet Cover Sets 

We want to sleep or to relax in a beautiful setting in our home which is our bedroom. To be honest I spend my time in my bedroom most of the time than in any other parts of our home. My bedroom is my temple, it is my home in our home. I love to beautify my bedroom to the bed sheets, to the pillowcases, to the wall decors and to the curtains. I want everything to be beautiful in my room.

So i was so excited when I saw this site BeddingInn because all the things that I want for my bedroom is all here. BeddingInn one of the leading suppliers of bedding sets and home decor in China. They keep abreast with the latest trends in fashion, offering fashionable bedding sets, blankets, bathrobe, towel, kitchen gadgets of good quality at the most reasonable price for each guest in the world. There are a lot of  varieties to choose from, they have it. They offer worldwide shipping and it is very convenient for you wherever you are in the world.

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So the following are my picks from their store. Enjoy :)

Unique Wedding 3D Big Red Rose Printed Black 4Pcs Bedding Set

Coral Fleece Milch Cow Print 4 Piece Bedding Sets/Duvet Cover Sets

Noble Bright Fuchsia 4-Piece Silk Duvet Cover Sets

Classical Black Color 4-Piece Duvet Cover Sets

Elegant Red Calla Lily Print 4-Piece Cotton Duvet Cover Sets

Hot Sell Classic Purple Series With White Flowers 4 Pieces Bedding Sets


My picks for wall decorations.. they are soo chic..

Hot Selling Pure 3D Beautiful Butterflies 12-piece Wall Stickers
Beautiful Butterflies on Magnolia Film Art Wall Prints
New Arrival Gorgeous Eiffel Tower Wall Stickers
Amazing Adorable Tulip Film Art Wall Prints
Splendid Beautiful Flowers Film Art Wall Prints
 European Style Retro Roman Numerals Design Wall Clock


These are my top picks for pillow cases.. Enjoy :)

Marilyn Monroe Linen Decorative Pillowcase 

l Beautiful Classy Blue Peony Flowers Print Rectangular Throw Pillowcase

Mysterious Wolf with Shiny Eyes Print Pillow Case

Amazing White Flower with Border Print 3D Couple Pillowcases

Personalized Cupid's Arrow Print Pink Full Cotton 2 Pieces Bed Pillowcases

Enjoy :)

Love,
Shebang..

Lazy Day Out

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While browsing my pictures months ago, I saw these pictures. These were the days that Im not that busy and yet thinking a lot of things. Im not that happy at that time because I was still confused and dont know what to do. I am just waiting for the perfect timing and now still waiting but I am now working for it. Those lazy days was very awful because I was unproductive and confused. They say good things come to those who wait.

These pictures are not ootd post, the outfit is just my laidback, lazy and normal outfit. Nothing special. Im not the kind of person that will spend too much on clothes. My clothes are just gifts and bought in the department stores because of the price. Maybe i will spend money in gadgets because I love gadgets, i have my wishlists. Maybe I will posts my ootd post if I have some time and will sort out my closet..

Love,

shebang

SeenZone Mode

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Meron ka bang crush na lagi mo ini-istalk sa Facebook, Twitter at Instagram? Gusto mo bang maka-close sa kanya? Gusto mo bang maka- usap mo siya minu-minuto, oras- oras o araw- araw? Kahit friend kayo sa Facebook o finallow mo sa Instagram at Twitter eh dedma lang siya?

Sa panahon ng peysbuk, yung crush mo lagi mo na ma- istalk, di ka na mahihirapan malaman yung ginagawa niya, lalo na yung crush mo na ginagawang diary yun peysbuk niya. Gusto mo siyang maging friend man lang, eh di nya alam na nag-eexist ka sa magandang mundong ito, Syempre, ikaw yung gagawa ng move pra maka- usap siya. Alangan naman yung crush mo yung unang mag- ppm sayo, ano ka sineswerte?

You made the first move, nag- pm ka sa crush mo. Yung message mo lng HI, hello or musta ka? lang pero isang oras mong pinag isipan na isend ba sa kanya o hindi. Senend mo na message mo, nagkataong online yung crush mo. So expect ka na magreply sa agad- agad. Ilang minuto ka naghintay at umabot nang isang oras, eh wala, di siya nag reply. Eh  wala, seenzoned ka ate/kuya!

Ano nga ba ang seenzone? Ayon sa research ko seenzone means, yung nag message ka sa kanya tapos di nag- reply. Well nangyari na sa akin yan siguro mga nth time. Pero di naman ako dispereda oi! Nag- assume lang...

Ang shakit- shakit!! na seenzoned ka! Di kaya biro ma- seenzoned. It means that ayaw na sayo, di ka like ng crush mo, Unlike ka sa kanya. Kawawa ka naman girl/ dude.

Pero kung ayaw niya sayo edi ayaw! Hanap ka na lng ng bago, move on move on din pag may time. At least may experience ka na pano ma seenzone. Di ka na gaanong masasaktan pag na seenzoned ka ulet. Di katapusan ng mundo na ma seenzone ka, it means that you deserved better than your crush. Move on is the key when your crush doesnt like you, masasaktan ka lang lalo. Remember di lang ikaw ang ma seenzone, marami kaya tayo. Minsan maka- feel tayo ng hiya dahil dedma lang sa atin si crush pero wala eh! Pero okay lang yan. Kawalan niya noh! Enjoyin mo lang ang life, deserve mo yan girl/ dude.

  

love,

shebang